almost hit

So i got to thinking today.
We almost got into a bad accident it would have sucked to because it would have been the same side that i was sitting on. Mother Sucker... it was really a hard concept to grasp, because at this point in my life i have things finally going for me. Things have been setteled, and other things well i'm still trying my best to let go. I believe im doign a great job too...

It just the fact that things are getting better and well getting in to an accident would have been the worst if it was bad.

so after i got home from taking my cousin and christy to get fitted...
i stayed home.
noone was home. i took a nap... while i was napping.. I had the worst dream. in refference to the 2 almost accidents of the day.

dream: I was coming home from church... and some lady pulled out with the quickness and my brother didnt pull away in time to not hit her (we had the right of way going down berressa). and right as she pulled out not seeing us.. BAM!!!Right in to the door spinnin out of controll... our car hits a parked car. I like there unable to move dazed... last thing I hear is my brother asking me if i was okay... calling my name. I'm pretty much knocked out watching everything from another point of view. I see the fire dep. come with the quickness.... calling for me to.. answer... figuring out how they were going to get me out because the door was...pushed in really bad. scence change: In the hospital. VALLEY MEDICAL, it so happens that my mom was working the double shif.. so she was alredy woking and her second shif was about to start, she get a call telling her to go to the ER, Emergency room... they do what they can... to fix me up... good enough take me to ICU. my brother was okay. broken arm.. scraps, sore, thats pretty much it. I see him standing there, crying... My mom was hystarical, major break down... and my aunts that work with here were trying to help her out. My brother was calling all of my ohan to tell them what happened. No one answered their phone. my dad was at the casino because his friend envited him and tryed his best to get to me asap... no where to be found. back to the brother calling people Karen and Jennelle, left messages... no answer back. One last try before his battery ran out he called jeff and he answered, told him what happened. found they were still in diego, told him to call everyone... for him...
scene in the ICU... on carefull watch... mom still there waiting prayin for me to wake up... on reperator... lungs full of blood... Just when it seems as tho i was about to wake up... BIG GASP OF AIR... I FLATLINED..

thats when I WOKE UP... cold sweat and crying... BLEH =(


fuckin scary...

I stayed home this whole day and well thought about everything...

I DONT LIKE MY DREAM... im hella tired but im scared of what im going to dream of... SCURRY ISH MAN!! =(