i've been thinking of you

there has been some though in my head about certain someones. I think its just that.. i miss i love I donno... i'm sooo confused. I can't believe that I put myself in to this situation... i've done it yet again. see a person leaves and then comes back and those certain feelings i had befor for that certain someone came back... I don't think it's my fault but I've got that feeling back and I don't want to let it go even tho it gets me angry. EH... well i'll be up and out...



I hate her.... I hate him!!! when i say hate i really mean it.

teh sad thing is

the sad thing is... HOW IS IT POSSIBLE I'm STILL HERE? really... seriously Why am I s tull stuck on this feeling? I think theres pobably some un finished business? could that be the reason? if it is... then DAMN! What keeps bring this up? i have No idea i thought it was out of my system. I guess not. ERRR FUCK!

i think

can you believe its been like 2 months now since i've seen those people.. I can and i think that its kinda sad that i'm the one that is the one that trys to keep in contact with them. because they can't do so for themselves... I'm actully talking about one particullar person when i say this

I thought you said you wanted to be friends still???? so where has that gone? It seems like i'm the one thats trying to make this friendship work. I'm the one thats trying to push for everything. It doesnt seem like your making anykind of effort. Maybe i should have just stuck with my original plan... which was to NOT TALK TO YOU AT ALL... or even try to call and see whats up with you. I mean isn't that what friends do... atleast see whats up with one another? Yeah so we don't hang out anymore....I don't mind. the thing that bothers me.. is YOUR THE ONE THAT WANTED TO STAY FRIENDS AND YOUR NOT MAKING AN EFFORT.

From what i see from you... I think its JUST SAD!

SOME FRIEND YOU TURNED OUT TO BE.

ugh..

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!


ugh.... YEAH...... thats all..